I DON'T HAVE IT ALL TOGETHER. THERE IS A CERTAIN BEAUTY TO THAT. TODAY WASN'T PARTICULARLY GOOD/BAD. THOSE ARE THE WORST KINDS IT SEEMS.THE DAYS WHEN YOU WANT TO BURST INTO TEARS AND YET THERE ISN'T ONE REASON THAT YOU CAN PINPOINT WHY. JUST A WHOLE CLUSTER OF MIND FOOLERY, NEGATIVE REMINDERS, AND THINGS THAT ARE OUT OF YOUR CONTROL NO MATTER HOW HARD YOU TRY TO CONTROL THEM. TEARS CAME TODAY AND THERE NO SHAME IN THAT EITHER. MY LITTLE ONES SEEM TO WANT MORE ATTENTION ON THE DAYS I FEEL INCAPABLE. I TURN INTO A PLAYGROUND GETTING CLIMBED OVER AND PULLED IN EVERY DIRECTION. ANXIETY BUILDS AS I QUESTION WHETHER OR NOT I AM A GOOD MOTHER. I FORCE THOSE THOUGHTS OUT OF MY HEAD, PLAY A LITTLE UNTIL I CAN NO LONGER MATCH THEIR ENERGY, AND RETREAT TO SOLITUDE. YES I AM A MOTHER BUT I AM SO MUCH MORE THAN THAT. I WAS TRYING TO DECIDE HOW OPEN TO BE AND WHAT I SHOULD SHARE. THE ONLY WAY TO BE IS RAW AND COMPLETELY ME.THIS IS MY RELEASE. AS I TRY TO RECAPTURE WHO I AM AND WHAT I'VE LOST ALONG THE WAY, I HOPE YOU CAN RELATE, LEARN, LAUGH, AND EVEN TEACH ME AS WELL.
LOVE,
REINE
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